struggling

sometimes you can't do anything about your situation. It's only a matter of time. It's only when things fall into place then they'll get better. Why is everything on hold? When did life become a waiting room. Waiting for the diagnosis, waiting for people to come back for you. 'Timeless' is make believe. We're running out of time. I want things to happen right now. I want to get what I have given back. We all just want to be loved. I want you to feel like like you're about the lose me forever. I want you to feel that now or never feeling. I'm not tired of waiting I just need you now, more than ever. I don't want to hurt myself because of you, I don't want to see it all come to end. The future scares me because I don't know what tomorrow brings because everything has been so much more difficult than it should have been. I take all faults for that however we can't keep living in the past, comparing things to last year. Last year we we're different people. Last year we played with chemicals and fire. This year we play with the hopes and dreams of eachother in which we plan to expand on to grow up and make something of ourselves. I don't want to do it alone, I can't do it by myself. You are such a big part of me. God please help me because love is an understatement about how I feel. This feeling hurts so much I don't want it, I wouldn't wish this on my wort enemy. That breaking point is right now. Letting go isn't an option. The only option is being. Everybody dies but not everyone lives. For seventeen years I have not lived one day yet. You and I both know when that day will be; When we're not on hold.

- It was my birthday this weekend, Im 17. The two most important people to me forgot.

aloe black & wu-tang clan - I need a dollar (bakija remix)