It's finally over. The 2 year battle of freedom, love and peace. We ended it. We're done fighting for something that should have never happened in the first place. Part of my life isn't on pause anymore, the double life is gone. It's never been my intention to hurt someone but they've hurt me too. A lot of ugly things have happened. I don't regret anything I've done as an outcome but I wish I had let go I a long time ago. I was just too scared of life without and going without. Fortunately I have a beautiful summer waiting for me with many good times to come. I really want a tattoo to represent the past 2 years because it has molded me into who I am right now. I hope that one day life wont have to be this chaotic anymore. I don't want to feel to need to save anyone anymore or be guilted into anything. Nobody saved me, I had to do that myself. Besides not wanting a serious relationship ironically I've found myself a beautiful carefree spirited person. It's a current joy to have this person in my life. I'm so tired of writting whats wrong with my life, I want to be out living it. I've ended the biggest, roughest chapter in my life and now I'm going to create a new amazing one. It's taken so much strength and courage to get to this point but I wish I didn't feel like I was losing my best friend. I'll always care.
I'm so stoked on my 'pocket full of sunshine' .
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