bridges

Some days are hard, these ones are really hard. I’m hoping its all just a push for something great that's about to happen. All i do is over think everything that is going on in my life right now. A lot of negative stuff, a lot of shitty situations, some bad stuff occurred. I kind of don’t want to talk about it because it already consumes my mind the majority of the day which ultimately ruins every single day. I want to tell you all about someone so beautiful, who’s spirit is just so breath taking? It just seizes to amaze me. I envy it. They’re extremely intelligent in unconventional ways, they never fucking shut up so they’re never boring. The stories they tell me are humerus yet relevant to whatever we’re talking about. They are so absolutely genuine that I forgot people like that exist. I don’t want to scare anyone off by getting them dragged into my problems but it’s nice to have a helping hand. The nonjudgmental aspect is so hard to grasp. It feels okay to be me whether I’m being a ditz or having a melt down. It’s kindness and in the moment / not getting bummed out / finding something else to do when life says ‘no’ to you. A new world is being brought into my eyes and I so desperately want to able to live in it. So accepting, so positive, so new. I need that, its fascinating and it just might solve a few problems. I’m not relying on anyone but it is something to look forward to?

- You all read this crap I write and say nothing, if you want to say something you should. Anything. Tell me about what's going on in your life. Compare/contrast whatever. Vent and let it out.