swel

To new beginnings, to great moments, to growth, to forgiveness. I want it all. Problems settle and problems collapse. I'm going to keep moving forward. I realize the damage I've done and I won't be taking a step backwards anymore. I don't want to be let down and I don't want to let anyone else down. I feel pretty neutral towards a lot of things at the moment but I'm also really hyped about certain things, then there's that part of me that gets scared to be disappointed. I guess you can't be scared to get hurt because sometimes it's unavoidable. You're just going to have to deal with it. The right way, whatever that may be. Schools done. Other things are done too. On to the next thing in life. It is going to be a good summer, I've said that every summer and it never really turned out that way but I'm going to make it that way. I hope I figure out a lot of things during my time off to get me ready for everything that is about to come my way. I have a few ideas on how to execute things I just don't know where to start. I feel really different lately, not bad per say but not amazing. I'm a little confused about a lot of things but I'm so ready for new shit. I'm just really sorry about a lot of things. Sometimes I'm just not happy with who I am, the things I've done. However, I can't really change those things all I can do is prevent them from happening again. I just want forgiveness somehow. But I also want all the things that I deserve that I wasn't getting and I'm not going to settle for anything less. I'm in control.